Well...This Is New - 56

"Hey."
I looked at the text from Paul.
"Hey."
We started talking. At first the conversation was casual. But then...
"I know why you were mad" he said.
I opened my mouth.
"It's because you thought I was flirting with Carrie".
I closed it.
"And how I put my head on your lap".
I glared.
"I wanted to annoy you because you were annoying me", I wrote.
That was the truth.
"No you were mad because of Carrie".
And then our conversation became very tense.
He reminded me, "I put my head on Heather and Sally. You're not that special".
"I know" I wrote. "But you shouldn't do those things".
"They don't mean anything".
"I know they don't, which is why it infuriates me when you do them".
"Fine I won't touch you anymore".
I tried to tell him to stop doing that stuff with ANYONE if he doesn't mean it. That flirting when you don't like someone is pointless. That it's not fair. He wouldn't listen.
By the end of the conversation, we were both angry and I was crying. He'd told me to stop blaming me for my feelings for him. I told him to stop doing flirtatious things if they mean nothing.
I told him I knew he felt nothing for me.
He didn't say anything.
I kept crying, snuggling into my covers. He told me to not be upset, that we should just go to sleep.
I was upset, and I couldn't fall asleep.
Now, I wonder who told him. I asked Sally or Heather if they were the ones who told him about my "anger". They said no.
If I ask Carrie and she says no, that means one of them is lying.
I'm so confused and hurt.
But mostly confused.
I don't know what to do or who to turn to.
I don't understand him.
He doesn't make any sense. Every action he makes contradicts the other one.
This is hurting me. It's hurting so much.
I don't know what to do.