Lost Reflections

ckahn • 353 followers

I, a child of luggaged dreams.
Adrift, with teddy bears and baby dolls between distracted households.

Longing for a sure foot upon the shifting desires of others.

Uprooted with whim and fancy.

See me... For whom does this light shine?
Or is it extinguished in these homes of unformed identities?

Lost reflections in countless playgrounds.
For who holds the mirror when you are a child of children in search of themselves?

There is no escaping the eternal truth that every child must rest their fortunes upon the whims of others.

And who do we become when another's whims make us fortunes fool? A shadow face reflected back in a mirror.

With eyes accustomed to seeing the world half gone.
Broken eyesight a lonely bequest from the past.

And with these antique eyes
I see distorted visions of others intent.
Reflections of disinterest.

I retreat in haste for I have nothing to offer.
My light was extinguished long ago, lost in the void of unformed identities,
which has now become my prison.

#childhood-trauma #family-dynamics #general #identity-crisis

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MrsS

Oct 6, 2012 at 8:21 PM

I'd love to say I get this..... But I've had too much amber nectar tonight!! 😂😂😂 It's lovely though - feels like if I read it again tomorrow, I'll know what you're talking about! 😳😘😘

sjw

Oct 6, 2012 at 8:22 PM

This is beautifully written and so sad because its true 😞👏💗💐

eddie12309

Oct 6, 2012 at 8:23 PM

This is a really poignant write. Children need routine and security when young. I occasionally come into contact with transient children and your words really sum up what will be lost at the hands of the adults. 💚💚👏

Fly10

Oct 6, 2012 at 9:42 PM

Heart wrenching piece. I know this an area of expertise for you, & that comes through so movingly 😓👏👏😌

sarahgamal

Oct 6, 2012 at 9:43 PM

Sad but beautiful😥👏👏

ckahn

Oct 7, 2012 at 2:37 AM

@MrsS ha ha. It is a bit cryptic

ckahn

Oct 7, 2012 at 2:39 AM

@sjw @eddie12309 @eddie12309 @Fly10 @sarahgamal thanks for the kind comments my Fabulous Opuss ladies! Here's some October spooky love for the RP's! 👻💗👻

MrsS

Oct 7, 2012 at 7:53 AM

@ckahn I totally get it this morning! 😔 A beautifully written piece that gives a real insight into that feeling of loss, despair, rejection and loneliness 😢

ckahn

Oct 7, 2012 at 2:41 PM

@MrsS thank you my friend💗💐💗 and loves for the RP, much appreciated!😘

RichWithey

Oct 7, 2012 at 10:50 PM

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ckahn

Oct 7, 2012 at 11:08 PM

@RichWithey thanks my friend. Although autobiographical I'm happy to say I've managed to managed to move beyond the grim tone of the ending. I tried to make it uplifting at end how in Dan I realize I'll never be abandoned again blah- blah- blah but the sudden shift in tone just wasn't working. And thanks for all the RP's I do love my Withey props! 💐💗💗💗💐😘