The Final Straw

I am gazing into your soft blue eyes
Watching the waves lap at the white sands where your iris ends
Searching for meaning in them as you tell me you love me
Wanting some proof you are my soul mate
That you are the person I need.
I can feel the waters lapping at my toes.
But they are cold, and besides... I can't swim
I'm not sure I want to.

I take out my spyglass and I am
Searching for a drop in the ocean
A tiny drop of something that means you understand
That shows me you have more to you than just what is visible from afar

I am looking to see if the waters of your eyes are clear enough
That I can see straight through them
To their sandy sea bed
And see the shining shells glint in the sun
Their hidden treasures and secrets peeking between the grains
To give me some incentive to dive in and explore the depths
The rocky caves and crevasses made of coral
But... I just...
Can't see any.

The water is full of silt
Green algae floats on the surface,
And the sea foam that storms have whipped up weeks ago
Now float: untouched, uncaring

I look for shoals of silver and gold fish
Darting about with energy and electricity
Vibrant with colour,
Their disk-like scales reflecting light
Like fleeting sparks of imagination
Moving as one, always changing direction
Indecisive
Compulsive
Exciting
But someone must have caught them long ago,
Because now I am looking, I see none

I am searching for the phosphorescence
That should be dancing across the waves
Like water spirits
Reflecting many moons and suns
Setting fire to the water,
So much beauty, so much thought
Reflecting everything it sees back, in a more beautiful way

But I see... none

I search, in desperation
For a boat
A single boat sailing on with enough purpose
Rolling North across the gentle current
The wind in its sails
But I never see a boat
I never see it.
There isn't even a dock, so I don't think there ever was one

I close up my spyglass, put it in my pocket.
I don't think I ever saw any waves
I never saw the shore,
All I can see is a pair of eyes now
That's all there is to you

I am searching as I stare deep into your soft blue eyes
But all I am seeing is blue,
And I do not love you.