Myself

I envisaged this idea that I will have a better future. I meant to have a much fulfilling and satisfying life when I said better. But then again, a small question but very mind boggling idea comes to mind, "How can I be satisfied with my life?"

Materially, I have a lot of things in mind that I really really want to have. To top it all off, the iPhone 5 which will be releasing in mid October. I really want to have the top gadgets again, not because I want to tolerate the stubbornness but because it feels like I've been missing out my own era. I am in dire need to catch up what we, the kids of my age, are up to now.

Next, I want to have a car of my own for pit's sake. I don't wanna drive Dad's beaty old black car which we acquired two years ago after we had it on a car accident. Dad was lost in thought when he hit that car on the roads of Kennon, Baguio city. The owner was blabbing a lot of expenses he's requiring dad to pay, and with dad's impeccable patience, he bought the car instead for a hundred grand.

What else? Ahh— the famous European tour. Dad had promised me to buy me either a car or a Euro ticket. And as far as time goes, up until now I'm not experiencing any. Why is dad like that anyway? He gives away full of promises but does nothing of it in return. Sometimes I really think, based on my experience, if promises are really made to be broken rather than fulfilled? I shrug at the thought.

But, after saying all these, I can't help but admit, I'm being like a stubborn teenage brat who wants the world in the palm of her hand. At the end of the day, I realize, I don't need these things, I just want them, but it doesn't mean I need them.

So what do I NEED to have a fulfilling, satisfying life?

I have to get back on this, in time.