Getting Back Up Again

Silent screams inside her head
As she fall down face first on her bed
She asks again and again
For reasons she cannot brain
Why God is life so hard?
Where everything I say or do just make things worse

Like a child
She cried and cried
Was as silent as the night
With all her might
She tried not to think of suicide
But she thought of it all the same

She knows now why people do it
For the pain to end
Be done with her life
To think no more
Worry no more
That would be the end

The more she thought about falling to her fate
The more she knew life is meant for pain and sorrow
Life is to be enjoyed for something more
She didn't want to die
Not yet ready to say goodbye
She felt ashamed for thinking such things
She never want regrets
Even if life gets the best of her

So she let go
Left her fate to the hands of God
She'll live in the present
Endure whatever is given

She is at peace because
Now she believes
She is worth much more than people give her credit for...