As The World

Was goin' through my old writing, and found another one similar to So I Cut but this was at age 14 #cut #cutters #lost #lonely #FML #invisible
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When the world turns and passes me by
I stood there, voicing
Voicing out for help
People still passes me by
I gazed upon their faces in puzzlement
Wondering why they are ingoring me
I reached out to touch someone's arm
Yet, they still ingores me
I stood there, amazed by ingorance
I stood there, amazed by hypocrites
As the world passes me by in a blur motion
I stood there, screaming
Yet, no sound came out
People passing me by
Faces come together in a blur
I stood there, crying
Yet, no tears came out
There I stood, all alone
All alone in shadow
I stood there, amazed by agroance
I stood there, amazed by self-centered
The world is passing me by
People is passing me by
All in a blur motion
Tears sting eyes I see with
Screams burns the voice I talk with
Soon, I lost all hope, faith and dreams
I stood there, amazed by blindness
I stood there, amazed by deafness
As soon as the world done with turning
Soon done with passing me by
I see something shiny on ground
I bend down and picked the object up
Studying it, learning quickly it is a sharp object
I bring it to my wrist, I slide pointy end down
Oh my, I feel pain
Oh my, I see blood flowing
When the world is done with turning
Done with passing me by
One tiny drop of blood hits the sidewalk
The world came to sreeching halt
People all around glares down upon me
Thinking this girl is crazy
I slid sharp pointy down bit more
Oh my, I feel my flesh being ripped
Oh my, I feel more pain
Oh my, I feel so dizzy
World now has stopped
People now standing all around me
Watching me closely
Yet, they stay far away as possible
I bleed, and bleed
Dark, red crimson blood flowing
Thick and sticky
Oh my, I see blackness
Oh my, I think Im spinning
World is spinning around me
Spinning and spinning
People pointing and laughing
Laughter roars into my ears
Oh, Im so dizzy
Im falling and falling
Im fading away
World is spinning so fast
I collasped, my body hits ground
I feel coldness
I feel numbness
I heard gasping and murmuring
I heard sirens, but fading away
Now echoing the distorted sound
Im fading away
Looking down
World is no longer spinning now
There, I lay still
Fading away
Fading away into the abyss.......