self

beat myself up
too bad
I can't get up
there's one solution
glass bottle
been sitting in my closet aging
waiting
I want to drink it
drown into bitterness
help me escape
I hate my life
my life is nothing
when I say I hate nothing I mean it
I'm nothing
nothing
if I'm nothing why do I feel pain
I want to drink
and feel my nothingness
my dad
his underage girlfriend
and my annoying sister
are watching a movie together
four friends have ditched me today
I don't think this last one will actually come over. she hates me
they all do
they all hate me
and don't have a clue
but it's okay
I hate me too
and that's why I'm through
trying to do what you want me to do
it'll make you hate me less
it'll make me hate me more
so why do it
it's not a chore
it's a friendship
fuck that
I'm happy alone
I'm beaten up
can't move
alone