The Ghost Of Christmas Past

leelee101 • 1434 followers

I can still remember
The winter suns ray
Lighting your face
On that Christmas Day
I took your coat
Knew something was wrong
You nervously smiled
Said you couldn't stay long

Exchanging gifts
As tradition dictates
We didn't have any
We'd left it too late
I can see you playing
With your curly red hair
As if you didn't
Want to be there

Dinner was slow
And quiet at best
Queen's speech and Bond film
Would be a real test
With parents absent
Visiting family
Your seasons greetings
Came painfully

You softly said
I have to go
Are you sure you don't mind...
I could only say no
Your coat your scarf
Your eyes to the floor
You didn't look back
As you walked out the door

In an unemptied ashtray
Cigarettes amassed
I rolled one after another
Each worse than the last
Turned off the TV
Couldn't stand what I saw
Reached for a bottle
Cried myself raw

I hated Christmas
For so many years
The silliest of seasons
Came with cold souvenirs
Now things are better
For I atone
Nothing is worse
Than Christmas alone

I still remember
When I saw you last
It's all that remains
Ghost of Christmas past
But every now and again
She'll float through my mind
A dancing girl
Who left drummer behind...

#emotional-trauma #general #heartbreak #holiday-memories #lost-love #nostalgia

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Comments & Feedback (29)

Dec 12, 2012 at 12:56 PM

@sammielee46 thanks for reposting Sam 👍❤🌹

Dec 12, 2012 at 1:00 PM

@leelee101 my pleasure honey, you're most welcome. Loved it :)

Dec 12, 2012 at 1:04 PM

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Dec 12, 2012 at 1:22 PM

@sammielee46 👍❤❤🌹

Dec 12, 2012 at 1:23 PM

@RichWithey cheers fella, oh yes it's well and truly in the past. Like it says, she just popped in for a moment. 👍 Thanks for reposting mate 👍👏🍻

Dec 12, 2012 at 1:24 PM

@leelee101 @RichWithey what rich said ;)

Dec 12, 2012 at 1:25 PM

@sammielee46 what I said 👆 👍❤

Dec 12, 2012 at 1:29 PM

This is gorgeous and sad, glad it's in your past 💋💋

Irrational_Kimmi

Dec 12, 2012 at 1:44 PM

@leelee101 brilliant, I really felt this one. Christmas alone sucks so much 😢

Dec 12, 2012 at 2:42 PM

@emma8899 appreciate your RP thank u 👍

Dec 12, 2012 at 2:43 PM

@Irrational_Kimmi it most certainly did sweety. Long time ago now. 👍❤ Thanks for reposting Kimmi 👍🌹

Dec 12, 2012 at 2:44 PM

@sjw thanks Sie. ❤ Yup, long time ago now, she pops in occasionally tho! Thank u for reposting hun 👍❤🌹

Dec 12, 2012 at 2:45 PM

@sjw that is, she pops into my brain occasionally... 😱😂

Dec 12, 2012 at 2:50 PM

I think most people have experienced this in one way or another mate, great write 😃🏃💨🎅💨⛄

Dec 12, 2012 at 2:51 PM

Awww, so bittersweet. Beautiful!🎄😘🎄

Dec 12, 2012 at 2:59 PM

Great write Lee❤😢 love the last 2 lines👏👏😘

Dec 12, 2012 at 3:12 PM

@sarahgamal thanks hunny, thought I'd write it out, you know? ❤ Thanks for reposting too 👍🌹

Dec 12, 2012 at 3:14 PM

@ckahn that's life kristina! ❤ Thanks for reposting hun 👍🌹

Dec 12, 2012 at 3:15 PM

@glen yup I reckon so mate, cheers. 👍 Thanks for the RP sir 🍻🍻

Dec 12, 2012 at 3:55 PM

@leelee101 glad you corrected that lmao 😂😂😘

Dec 12, 2012 at 4:23 PM

@sjw 😱😱😱 Ho Ho Ho? More like No. No. No.... 😂😂😂👍❤

Dec 12, 2012 at 4:39 PM

That's very sensitively written, it's good that it's all turned round now! 😊

Dec 12, 2012 at 5:21 PM

@crowncottage thanks Linda, all done with a looooong time ago ❤ Thank u for the RP too lovely lady. 👍❤🌹

Dec 12, 2012 at 6:19 PM

A sad memory but as Linda says sensitively put💚☕evening

Dec 12, 2012 at 6:29 PM

@leelee101 your welcome

Dec 12, 2012 at 8:57 PM

Emotive ice my sweet...hope you are ok Hun ...big huggies 💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪

Dec 12, 2012 at 9:41 PM

@misslittleDHP aw thank u Kim, all good, 'twas ages ago. ❤ Thanks for asking my lovely and thanks for reposting too 👍❤🌹

Dec 12, 2012 at 9:49 PM

@eddie12309 thanks hun. I tried to write it raw, hopefully it came across. ❤ Long time ago, well and truly done with. 👍 And ☕™🌹

Dec 16, 2012 at 12:22 AM

Beautifully written, straight from the heart. I really felt for you on this one! 🌟✨🌟✨🎄

Dec 16, 2012 at 12:25 AM

@sleepydragon thanks Diana. ❤ Long time ago. 👍 Thanks for reposting hun 🌹😘

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