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This isn't going to rhyme. the emotions to strong for me to make it have a beat. I love you. Oh god I can't tell you how much. but I suck. I'm not slim, I have acne and feel like I'm worth nothing to you. You couldn't even tell me you were seeing her? instead of me. of course that makes me sad. I love you. but I can't tell if you love me. do I make you happy? do I fulfil your life, like you do mine? I can't tell! ouch, what was that? in my chest, god it hurt, like a sinking feeling of ... urgh, sickness! I can't control it, the pang of pain shortly followed with tears in my eyes. ouch! Again! there it was. It makes me want to rip my heart from my chest and lock it away as never to feel again. Ahhh please this hurts. I dial for your number I need to explain. you forward my call. the deadline is like a knife ... ouch! fuck off! I hate love!!! I try again then receive a message to tell me you don't want to talk. you hate me. I love you and you hate me. ahh this is unbearable it's like someones stuck a spear into my chest and is twisting it. my eyes are hurting now, the tears are flowing. I don't mind you seeing her just don't hide it!!! I'm your girlfriend not her! now you're cross. You say I always react like this. why?? why you ask? because I don't feel like I'm part of your life anymore! ouch there it is again. Urgh lord please kill me now. You tell me you'll get over it soon. But I'm the one holding the remains of my heart in my hands. Ouch... I think this is called love. The bad side. Ouch... damn I love you.. Ouch ... just wish you'd show me you love me too... ouch... the pain. it's my heart. ouch... and now I'm done, my eyes are red, my heart has bled. no life left. I'm on the floor. yet still. I seem, to love you more... Ouch.