How can I?

How can I know that nothing will ever happen between us?
How can I know that on some level you don't feel the same as mee?
How can I accept the fact that you don't love me, even a little bit?
It ripps me apart knowing that you never saw me as that, you maybe never saw me as a friend either.
No matter what, you will always have a place in my heart.
I will think of you less and less every year but I know that some things will always remind me of you. To know that you are not at the same level as me is heartbreaking but nothing in my life has been easy, and never will be.
Never had luck, happines, love from someone other then family (even that love I dought sometimes)
I guess this is the life I was born in to and the life that I have to accept even if I don't want to.