path from victim to survivor

I've gone through many difficult things lately. I've been depressed, I've struggled with anxiety. I had no hope and no wishes for the future. I just wanted to disappear. I did not care if I lived or died. I wanted someone to see me. I wanted all the bad things to go away. Far away. I thought I could hide from the difficult things, from the feelings, history and truth. I tried to hide. And I succeeded, but not for long. I've learned. It is not a weakness to ask for help. It is to be strong! It is to take control, to take action. To help yourself. I've asked for help. I've got help. And I was lucky. I made it through.