Certainly Not Today

Counseling, therapy
Whatever you call it
I've been going
Since I was 7

Frequently at first
But less and less
As I got used to
Breaking into pieces

An emotional breakdown
Was rare for I
After 3 years of therapy
I kinda let it go

Turning to material items
I became more than stable
Happy, innovative, ambitious
A quick learner

No problems found
I was perfectly fine
But once I took this risk
Fate revealed a different design

Not fine at all
Mentally screwed
Emotionally beat up
Need to be renewed

Too weird
To be understood
Too quiet (for once)
To be in a friendly mood

Far too opposite
For the whole world
Why do you think
I write, and read, beautiful words?

Call me crazy
If you may
But I'm not changing myself
Not tomorrow, in a year, ad certainly not today