On Hold.

Yea. That defines my current state of existence. 'On hold'- My prior excitement for homecoming has sizzled out, though it hasn't really progressed into a depressive mode, it is in a idle state. No difference, zero progress. Thus, that's on hold.The only thing that has adapted to the climate is my hair. My indian roots has never stood out this prominently with my gravity-defying curls. So, every day is a baaad hair day? Awesome. On top of that,everything is going as expected, the only time I wished I was wrong. Expected that my life back here would be stagnant, and demotivating and yes, life granted that wish. Anyway, I am learning something from all this. There is no POINT for being this way. The only thing to do is actually to wake up and DO something. I was convincing myself that this is my break from all that studies, but really, I could have never been more wrong. This whole year was a long haul holiday for me, Master's or not. Last September I went there when my whole world was shattered, I picked up the pieces, and all that retail therapies, amazing friends and my 'home' Kent, were there as my pillars. Blessed,I think I may have also a fine stranger , helping piecing back the broken pieces together. But, is he replacing the missing pieces with his? There is another story unfolding on this but one thing I know is that I am my own enabler. I need to take control of my life in order to allow the good things into my life, and remove and evade all the bad things off , completely. This is not the New Year's wish, this is and will be my 2012 wish. Ameen :)