"we'll accept you for whoever you are"
I'm here
but I'm not
barely there
Christmas Eve
dinner with the family
I have to cover my arms
cuts cover it
45 sharp cuts
5 small scratches
I have to take my earrings out
take my rings off
put up my hair
and piss off
"I'll accept your flaws"
"I was a kid once"
So you used to be just like me?
so you know all my pain
and know all my shame?
then why are you so judgmental
if you were like me
you were me
I am you
there's a fine line between "just like you"
and being a teenager too
you weren't just like me
I don't remind you of yourself
you don't even know me
not more than anyone else
I'm not your happy little girl
I'm depressed
emotionally drained
mentally stained
I can't help it
I can
but I don't want to
this is me
I don't want to disappoint you by being me
but wouldn't you understand
wouldn't you
if you were "just like me"
and if you were like me
then i guess what they say is true
you become the thing you hate
I don't want to become you
and tell some kid I know the truth
that I know them
I don't know them
I hope I don't say that to a kid
but what if the kid really is like me?
what if they're trapped with my fate?
what if I'm trapped with my aunts fate?
what if she's right?
just like I'll be
what if I'm her
and she was me
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ever read the original 7 runaways comics? dunno if you read much comics, but it my second favorite comic series. and this kids reminded me of a line from in one of the books
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