told

new generation
new age
hiding behind old problems
if everyone thinks you're mental you can do what you like without being judged
go crazy and your folks won't budge
hide behind a disorder
claim to be insane
no one knows for sure
what happens in your brain
scared the real you is boring
if you don't have issues,
the crowd will start snoring
I'm scared to be me
cutting and smoking and sex is a front
with out all the insanity
what's left of me
it's just me
the girl in the mirror
she's boring
she's pure
no one wants her
no one would like her
I'm scared to stop this all
fear of rejection
I don't think I'm crazy
self inflicted injection
make me crazy
so I don't have to make sense
I make sense
I'm normal
I'm plain
I'm a joke
I'm sane
no one likes the girl who likes herself
but no one likes the girl trying to be something else
but if you make yourself a victim
you get pity
you get people's curiosity
when there's so many lies at once,
you stop feeling shitty
good feelings go away
telling yourself your crazy actually makes you insane
can't stop the motions
swimming in pain
I'm not a cutter and I'm not crazy
just sliced my arm up today
I'm always lazy
too lazy to go out
too lazy to have fun
what the hell is fun
I forgot the feeling
all I remember is my dull white ceiling
the paint is peeling
so am I
there's no more imaginary front
stop trying to hide
hide behind insanity
scared to show you me
I don't know if I'm even half the person you want of me
how can someone like me for me
when it might just be a front
when I don't know me
you don't know me
I don't know me
I want to know me without you knowing me too
I'm scared you'd get bored
I'm not as cool
I'm not as cool as the monster I've created
blasting the Ramones,
I wanna be sedated.
I can't stop trying
trying to be cool
I can't stop getting dressed
to impress at school
I'm getting the attention I want
but is it really me getting it
or this front?
I need to stop
trying to fit
I'm not going to fit your mold
I know this now
but the truth can't be told