virginity

is this it
seriously

where's the rest

we had sex

we're supposed to be in love now
we're supposed to be in love god damnit

is this love

is this what I've spent my whole life preparing for?
is this it?

I've reached the goal
it's not as rewarding
as they said

they said

I heard
I believed

they deceived

I believed

god dammit I believed

and now I'm here
clingy and attached

to a boy's emotions that don't match

that's it I guess

that's all