Gathering Thoughts

I took a long walk along the reservoir bank
Walked for miles trying to gather my thoughts
I thought about you and the what ifs...my heart sank
Thought about the love and affection we both sought

I picked up a pebble, skimmed it across the water
It's brush with the surface, reminded me of how close yet far we were
Realisation that you could never let go, like you ought to
The future brushed aside without a care

A lone rabbit hopped infront of me
Glimmers of hope in its big beautiful eyes
It was that look of amazement that made me wake up and see
That my trusting and faith was my own demise

I walked further off the beaten track
Lost in a world of trees and pine cones
The branches underfoot reminded me of you when they gave in and cracked
As the night drew in I got those shivers in my bones

As darkness fell, there was a realisation that this was a living hell
I sat on the bank not wanting to admit I'd been used again
My inner torment, I'm left empty like a shell
A heart remains, infected with pain.