Yes I Am Still Hurt

I still remember your words,
I still remember your face.
You said you were in love but not with me.
You said "I see her face when I am with you".
You said and you said so many hurtful things.
All I could think of was but I love you so much and I can't let go.
Give me another chance and things might really flow.

You did.
But she didn't.
The torture of knowing that you were in a real relationship.
It wasn't just sex like I imagined.
She knows more about you than I do.
You opened yourself to her like never to me.
She said you don't love me.
But I didn't care.
She showed me what you did for her,
But I didn't get scared.
"it's just a fall back and we will get through,"
I told myself he said somewhere he still cares and I wanted it to be true.

But now I am broken beyond repair,
And the thing is I don't think I really care.
I thought you would be back with all your love and affection.
I saw what you did with her and unfortunately I hoped I would have all that to myself.
But now you are here and you say you are back.
Why the hell am I not getting your attention.
I don't know if you are losing me or am I losing myself.
I asked for your help so many times to get through this.
Damn it I told you upfront I want you to take care of me.
But you didn't and you said you don't know how!!!
She was miles away and you did but I am here with you now!!
You don't know how???!!!
I am still hurt and you don't want to help.
I am mentally and physically tired can you think about me instead of yourself.
With all the love I have for you, I deserve to be loved.
I really worked hard but I think I'll never be enough.
I am still hurt you didn't go back on your words.
I am still hurt that I am still not rocking your world.