The Girl in The Window

I'm all alone.
I sit in my room...
It's pitch black except when a clap of thunder and a flash of lightning light up the whole room for a split second.
Something is drawing me towards my window, I get up off my bed and walk to it. The minute my feet touch the ground, I realize that I made a huge mistake in wanting to know what was at that window. But something kept me striving for it. I didnt realize that I was already half way there. Once I reached the window, I reached out a cold, shaking hand towards the curtain. I wanted to know what was behind it. I was afraid. My fingers barely touch the soft fabric.
I could almost feel every thread as I gripped it and pulled it away from the window.
There it was.
A face.
I jumped back and stumbled to the ground.
I wasn't sure about what I saw...
I somehow mustered up the courage to get up and look again.
•BOOM•
I loud clap of thunder and a bright flash of lightning hit.
I saw the face again.
It was me.
The person I used to be.
She was sad, alone, empty.
Her wrists were slit and she was incredibly thin.
Her hair was losing its natural chocolate brown color and her face was pale.
Her eyes were filled with tears.
I was shocked and I shut the curtain and scurried to my bed.
Had I really seen that?
Had I really seen the "old Aimee?"
The girl that was labeled "emo" or "attention whore"?
Yes.
She never had anyone to help her up.
No one.
She found the courage herself to get back up and keep on living.
She was unafraid.
Had I really been that person once?
How did I ever find the strength to not give up?
Was it God?
Yes.
He didn't give up on her.
The LORD helped her and gave her strength to keep going.
I'm a completely different person now.
I've changed.
My demons have left me.
That girl staring back at me is gone.
Not dead, not forgotten; but she has evolved into someone who is confident and happy with who she is.
I am me.
I wont ever change to please anyone.
I'm only human.
"I fear no evil for YOU are with me."
I will never doubt again.