I have to be a strong father, husband, son for I am a man.
I pray for a sign, a show of strength, anything that lets me know there's a plan.
My friends, my family all offer their shoulder.
But I'm ashamed to take it, I'm a man, I'm a boulder.
But if I go on these shoulders will creak.
Then everyone will see, deep down I am meek.
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Inspired by @sarahgamal I am Strong poem. If I am strong, Then why when I am trying to be do I start to shake. If I am strong, Then why when I am yelled at tears will spring.
How come I can't tell people I cry ?. And that I feel really sad sometimes ?. Why can't it be ok if I don't know why ?.
Trembling at the thought of seeing you. Terrified knowing this is something I have to do. Shaking like a leaf. Why am I scared beyond belief. We'd agreed today was the day.
When I'm being sensitive, its all too much Feel like you all hate me, where is the love.
I want to see what I look like through other peoples eyes. I want to see if they can see what lies beneath. I want to see if they can see what I'm hiding.
I need love,. I need to smile,. I need to laugh,. Just for a while,. I need quiet,. I need tranquility,. I need fun,. And serenity,. I need a friend,. I need an ear,. I need a listener,.
Fragile as a new-born, Translucent as a past, Touch me and I'll shatter, I wasn't meant to last. Hold me, I'll be broken, Leave me, I will fade, Love me, live me, I will die, Ignore me where I'm laid.
I hate that smile, the one I plaster on my face, the one that says I'm happy. The only thing that tells otherwise are my words. The words that honestly tell you I'm not okay.
I don't think opening up to friends and family that love and care about you isn't weak, I think admitting vulnerabilities can actually show strength ๐
@chy true, and most times I do, but I learned young how to box things away and it works most times, only sometimes it builds up too much ๐
@Burrfoot when it builds up does it then come out in a good or bad way.....I learned that if boxed up thing can get twisted and mutated and the result ain't good๐
@chy takes a lot to get to me, but when it does my thoughts are hard to control and my head throbs. I don't sleep well because I get horrible thoughts when it's quiet, but it doesn't last ๐ช
@Burrfoot uncontrollable thoughts and sleepless nights are awful.... ๐ and they bring more than eye bags with them ๐ณ๐ณ I'm glad they don't last long though ๐ take care of yourself too ๐
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