I hate that smile, the one I plaster on my face, the one that says I'm happy.
The only thing that tells otherwise are my words. The words that honestly tell you I'm not okay.
I smile and hide my feelings. No reason to bring everyone down.
Just don't look to me for answers, listen to me for them.
Just listen to me.
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Hi :) I'm 12 and I love writing, dancing, photography, volunteering, and my family and friends.
When I'm being sensitive, its all too much Feel like you all hate me, where is the love.
How come I can't tell people I cry ?. And that I feel really sad sometimes ?. Why can't it be ok if I don't know why ?.
My mind is caving in. I can feel it begin. Crumbling edges. Outside looking in. Foundations shaking. Fragility breaking. Cracks appearing. Despair i am fearing. Losing my grip. Losing my way.
I lay in bed The sky is dark The city is asleep And I know nobody can see me So let myself go Push down my emotional walls.
Silent tears that I cry Begging for help, begging for mercy My head is swimming with a plethora of buzzing thoughts wanting to get in my way and mess up my mind Sadness.
Sometimes I can't sleep. Sometimes I cry deep. Sometimes I can't cope. Sometimes I lose hope. Sometimes I need a pug. Sometimes I can't be too smug. Sometimes I want a kiss.
The surface I wear is torn. My thoughts they seem to leek. Now you've seen my insides, I know you see me as weak. But if I was to explain why, Well then you'd never understand.
I need to find a place. Where my head can rest. I need to find a place. Where I can be my best. My brain is not my own no more. Clouded with too much stress. I just really want to know the score.
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