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The Truth About Me.

Call me an emo, I don't care anymore.

I've been bullied for years now, and people have always been putting me down. I'm an outcast, a loner. I have low self confidence and hate what I see when I look in a mirror. I always feel worthless, like I don't belong here. It's this tangled knot of shyness, depression, doubt and worthlessness just churning inside me and my heart aches constantly. I feel like I'm not good enough, that I aren't worth it. I have trust issues, I don't tel my friends my secrets, and my schools friends don't know any of this. I am fighting the urge to self harm, but keep failing. To my friends, I seem like this happy crazy girl with happy thoughts. Really though I'm just shy, sad depressed girl worth nothing.

Emma_33

@Emma_33

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Comments & Feedback (22)

The better you become at acting your outward persona, the more it becomes the real u

@Burrfoot ok what the fuck does that mean?

I was a shy kid with real low self esteem.. But learned how to pretend to be outwardly happy and make ppl laugh and generally appear the life and soul of the party.. The longer I kept it up, the better I was at it until one day I realised, it wasn't a mask any more.. That's what the fuck that means

@Burrfoot Right ok. Thanks

@Emma_33 don't feel bad about yourself! I love to read your stuff and you seem like a cool person! To heck with those stupid people who are mean to you!

@Emma_33 just be yourself, that's only what people can ask you to be :) xx

@tattyteddy I know. It's hard though. I've suffered depression and I think people have noticed and it seems to put them off. Thanks though c

@Emma_33 the people put you down just to make you feel bad and make them look like their higher. Forget about people who are rude to you just ignore them what ever they do and if they say something tell them to shut up because they shouldn't be rude to anyone. Also you probably don't want to self harm yourself but you feel the urge to self harm I would suggest going to a therapist/doctor but I know it can be embarrassing so if you'd rather not visit a therapist/doctor then I would suggest that 3 things: 1) You stop self harming no matter what

@Faisal four things. One. 4๐Ÿค๐Ÿค

2) You find new things to do because I used to self harm a long time ago and it was because of depression so you should try to find new things you like so then you forget about self harming and you can do those things (playing games/activities/or other things you might like) and 3) To improve your confidence talk to people more. You can talk in person or through social networking to your friends

@Faisal sorry tht failed. 1. Thanks. 2. That's a lot of words. 3. Where did you get the energy to type all that. 4. I'm not going to a therapist.

@Emma_33 I got the energy because well I don't know lol. Also if you don't want to go to a therapist then I suggest you should try to slowly stop making yourself self harm. So don't just say I will never self harm again. (That would be hard) instead limit it down so say you do it 3 times a week (example) then try to do it only 2 times a week for a few weeks then only once a week for a few weeks and finally stop. Also this is linked with depression so like I said try to find and do things you like.

@Faisal THAT IS AN UNATURUL AMOUNT OF ENERGY.

@Faisal and anyway I only self harm like 2 times a week so that's probably gonna be easier

@Emma_33 yes I have super powers so I have unnatural amount of energy :) and yes it's going to be easy

@Faisal ok, valy I'm sure you do not have super powers, ok?

Everyone is worth something, but if there are days where you wish something good would happen soon, listen to your favourite song over and over. I do it and it works for me! :)

@Onixea thanks

No prob

@Emma_33 those people who bully YOU have a right nerve! Usually people bully coz they were bullied and that's funny coz like that's and all the populars have like been bullied!! How Funny! Lol. U a good person and only bitches who don't feel confident in them delves have the heart to bully and then that makes them seem cool but they are just fucking idiots that can't believe in them selves and are like u probs - font like what they see in the mirror each day!

God that is a lot of typing.

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