Self Destructive Ills

IndiaSparrow • 263 followers

I'll drink myself silly
Fill my glass till it spills
Then slowly pop a packet
And down a bottle of pills
Its me versus nicotine
In a battle of wills
Thousands of cold needles
Just like porcupine quills
I'm an adrenaline junkie
Looking for some new thrills
I'm not interested in paying
All those tiresome bills
Call the barman over
For a couple more refills
So much ice in my glass
I think I got chills
Don't dilute it anymore
I don't care how it fills
I'm in a self-destructive spiral
Take a look at my skills!
There's a buzzing in my head
A hundred dentist drills
Or maybe more like songbirds
And their incessant trills
I wonder how long this
Lifestyle takes when it kills?
I wonder how long it takes
Till my bated breath stills?

I.Sparrow

#addiction #existential-crisis #general #mental-health #self-destruction #substance-abuse

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Comments & Feedback (13)

Jun 1, 2012 at 8:30 AM

Had a bit of an experiment with structure. Let me know if you like it or not :)

Jun 1, 2012 at 9:55 AM

I'm loving this I really am...hey structure works for you my lovely!!

Jun 1, 2012 at 9:58 AM

@misslittleDHP thank you, I just thought if try something a little new ;)

Jun 1, 2012 at 10:11 AM

@IndiaSparrow structure's great hun. Nice one 😘

Jun 1, 2012 at 10:17 AM

@leelee101 thanks :D

Jun 1, 2012 at 10:44 AM

Really like it 😽💞

Jun 1, 2012 at 3:11 PM

Very clever structure - I like! 😊

Jun 1, 2012 at 4:03 PM

@naaviie @sjw thanks! It seems experimenting can have it's successes!

Jun 1, 2012 at 4:12 PM

Gotta experiment to find the gems!

Jun 1, 2012 at 5:18 PM

@IndiaSparrow 💞

Jun 4, 2012 at 7:37 AM

Awesome 😄 this is great

Jun 4, 2012 at 7:46 AM

@aleishagayle20 thank you ;)

Jun 4, 2012 at 7:47 AM

@IndiaSparrow 😘😘

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