A little hit and miss this week,
You're busy, so busy, too busy,
To waste time and energy on me,
Called you back twice,
Just to hear your voice,
Still working, can't talk,
Call me tomorrow will you?
The phone call may not be
The highlight of your week,
But its so important to me,
Sustenance in your words,
A gently spoken hello,
A laugh or two numbs the wound,
Keeps my aim true.
We knew it would be like this;
Not talking from one week to the next,
Regularity and stability are
Unachievable long distance ,
It's a case of when we can,
Not when we want,
Not like the good old days;
Twelve hours in your company,
Still never enough for me,
A weekend marathon of
Drinking and childish laughter,
Made my happy ever after,
But no longer possible,
And god knows I miss you,
I'm alone on a Saturday night;
What are you up to?
It's all fun and games
Until one of our hearts breaks,
From time and distance
And inconvenience,
Even if temptation shows its face -
Don't walk away,
We never thought it would be easy,
But the hits will be worth
The countless painful misses.
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😭😭😭😭💔💔💔 so sorry you didn't reach him hun, I know even only a few minutes would have been worth it. He is forgetful with his phone, but I'm sure he'll try and get back to you. Keep strong. It's not much but I'm sure he wouldn't walk away, he misses you just as much, hugs and more hugs and wine. I hate that feeling of realising how alone you are...and that maybe they're having fun while you sit in a dark room with wine. Or maybe that's just my weekends 😊 xx
@chickgamer we spoke for like, a minute, but he was in some ceremony thing for his work so he said to call him back in an hour...I waited, called back and he was still in it! I know it's not his fault, and he was all apologetic but meh, I was just looking forward to it and I feel like its more important to me than it is to him. Ack, I know I'm being irrational, his life is busy and mine is pretty empty, it was always going to be a case of me missing him more. Hehe sounds like my weekends too! Wine, movie, darkened room...cake.
@Irrational_Kimmi hmm I should have thought of cake! Damn. It's not his fault but obviously he's the one who knows he schedule so he should plan better. Not criticising him but you're left feeling 'needy' and one sided, and he's unaware of it...but as soon as you get to talk to him, you won't remember feeling like this, until the next time. When Chris does it, I just kill people on the Xbox...I know he's busy but it should be an equal pathway of communication. Does that even make sense? Wine makes sense! 👍😘
@chickgamer yeah it does make sense and I do feel like that sometimes, but that's the way he is - he's so relaxed about everything, he won't even have thought that it would have upset me. Not because he's thoughtless, but because he would just shrug it off personally as we do get to talk tomorrow anyway. And yeah, I'll be all 😍 after that and probably won't care anymore. I think his schedule is very changeable, due to the fact Nepalese people do not rush/worry/plan anything! Yeah I've been slaying dragons on skyrim and I watched the hunger games to pass the time. Nothing like teenagers killing each other to make you feel better! 😁
@Irrational_Kimmi have you see battle royale? It's basically the hunger games but more violent and Asian. It came years ago as well. But yeah I can understand that,, to him it's not an issue but us women, we need the reassurance that's its okay, and just to feel that depth of emotion from someone you truly love. I dunno, sometimes I feel like I have a cup runeth over type of thing, I have so much emotion to give. Do you get that?
Awww Kim, you'll feel much better when you've spoken to him tomorrow massive hug and lots of 🍰🍰🍰for you xx
@chickgamer yeah I love Battle Royale, it's mad! I feel the same, madly in love in a totally over-the-top way and I've never felt like this before so I don't really know what to do with myself! 😳
@chickgamer @minxyMolly yeah I'm better now, just had a good long chat with Johnny - finally! So I'm all 😍 again. But it makes me miss him too - especially when he starts talking about coming home 😢 it makes me want him back now. And we actually arranged the next phone call so no hit and miss next week!
@Irrational_Kimmi aaww well made up for you, glad you had a chat and the loving feeling came back lol it's like an addiction really. But he'll be back before you know it, November next week and then Xmas...keep busy with writing and job hunting 👍💗 woop for next week!!
@chickgamer yay I'm all happy now. And he was all sorry about not emailing me for a few days because he had no Internet and he was all: "I'll email you tomorrow!" So yay. I get another Johnny fix 😍😍😍 I'm definitely a junkie for him! It's nearly been two months already, it's going faster than I thought it would.
@Irrational_Kimmi see I told you it would fly by 😊 haha lucky to get another fix of Johnny. Save the cake for next week then! Share some of the joy, mine has been absent all day
@chickgamer I love his emails too - he always goes off on random tangents! He should be updating the blog too, so hopefully get some more pictures. I need to harass him for a photo of him straddling his motorbike, although I may wet my knickers! 😍💜 I'll save my bottle of red wine for later in the week. Aww has he been busy or are you just trying not to be needy? 😜
@Irrational_Kimmi hmm something about men and bikes just make a woman weak! The more rugged, the wetter you get 😝😉 I'll look forward to his updates, seems like he's at least having a good time. It's both, giving him space so he doesn't have to worry about me therefore I'm not a nuisance. Yeap I'm that kinda person to over think haha
@chickgamer yeah, the first guy I ever went out with had a motorbike...I think that's all I liked about him tbh! Gawd I'm the same, I always over think the emails I send, what I say etc! Men are so easily scared off though, we have to be careful! 😝😉
@Irrational_Kimmi I'm texting him now and it's also blasé and not even casual, just meh, you've texted me. So what? Lol ah the fun in keeping my emotions down. 😊 Chris had a motorbike, which he sold to move to London. I was like show me the pics, then get naked!
@chickgamer I have to stop myself gushing like a moron on the phone! I'm an expert at keeping my emotions in! I have sent one or two ill-advised emails when I've had a drink! 😳 I don't know what it is about motorbikes, they just get me hot!
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