Dark Dreams

"Hush now! You're Safe." He whispered calmly in my ear. " You're home, in bed, with me."
I turned to look in the familiar dark eyes and slowly calmed my panted breath. Thank God he's here! He kisses my forehead and gently caresses my face. "There you go!" He smiles against my lips. "What was it about now?"
I panic, and search his eyes for a way out. "I don't wanna remember!"
"You have to tell me! We've been through this before."
"I know, but I still don't wanna remember."
"Was it that bad?"
"Worse..." I start shaking, thinking about the feeling...the empty feeling which woke me up. No, I really don't want to go there again.
"Shhhh! I'm here!" He cradles me in his arms but the pain is still there.
"It hurts."
"What?"
"My chest! I felt so alone, so empty. And the hole in my chest was bigger than me, pulling me in a dark place and.." My words fail me while I whisper, afraid that it will come back.
"But you are here now. Everything is fine, as it should be."
"Is it? That felt like an eternity. The cold black earth, the sound of the wood, it felt so real and so...cold..."
"Here it's warm. Stay with me forever"
"That is my biggest wish. I just wish I could."
"Nothing stoping you"
"If that would only be true...."
He started kissing me and caressing my face. His lips so warm and soft touching my dried face. My tears start falling while I relinquish in his touch.
And I close my eyes...

......

"Last night I dreamt about him." She wrote in her small notebook that she used as a partial diary. It was a present from Daniel. She cared for it very much so she only used it for some stories of her life. Dreams, actually, in which he appeared. "He asked me to stay with him. I am sure it was just my pain who spoke those words." She placed her head on the desk and stared at the photo she had put there for these moments. The rain was falling on the window, making the sound of a thousand little bells. Daniel loved that sound. He was smiling at her from the frame. "I was happy then" she thought. Her eyes closed and she fell asleep, listening to the rain.
Not after long, someone was shaking her hand. She opened her eyes, to stare in the big dark eyes, too close to her face, and smiled.
"Let's go, Mommy. We have to go to Daddy. You said we will go today."
She looked at the window and saw that the rain stopped. "You're already dressed!" said, while kissing his forehead.
"I'm a big boy! I already have 5years! I can dress myself." He said with pride in his voice, a sound she knew well.
"You are so much like Daddy... Go wait outside. I'll be there in a bit." She sent him off, while tears prickled her eyes, so he would not see her cry, again.

The Memorial Graveyard was as sad and green as it was a month ago, in that day. The cold stone beard his name with an implacable finality. "Beloved husband and father. He will always be in their hearts!" Her Mom really outdone herself with does words. All though it breaks her heart reading them.
"Look, Daddy, I made this for you!" He said, putting a small paper on the cold stone. "I miss you very much and Mommy misses you to."
She felt as if her heart was riped from her chest and she started crying.

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