Trapped In A Choice

This isn't what I asked for,
Did I really put my name down for this?
To live this endless war,
To never feel the kindness of bliss.

You're destroying my heart,
Braking my very soul,
Did I place myself in this blacked art,
To win some sort of titled role?

And do I have a chance to win?
Have I any luck left?
Was my faith some deadly sin?
Or am I a product of a theft?

Did I steal a distant dream?
Are my plans already broken?
Did i bet on the wrong team?
Should I have left words unspoken?

They say I should have faith,
That there's a higher plan,
Yet my choices become wraiths,
And I've met no wise man.

It's tiring to have some belief,
When all I'm told is no,
Am I just some thief?
Or am I just the one in the know?

So don't say a pitiful word,
Let them not hurt me so,
Something's are better left unheard,
Save me from the woe.

I'll continue to fight,
It's what I always do,
I have no savour knight,
This is all that is true.