I'll Continue To Write

I watch you climb
Want to be at your side
I'm so glad for you
I shan't worry you with these feelings of mine

I'm so happy
Just for you
But I can't ignore
That inside, I'm feeling blue

I support you fully
As you've always known
But my pain is growing
And keeping me thrown

Try not to care
But it only becomes worse
I stay quiet for you
Although I might curse

Just write
About the unknown pain
So you won't worry
And I won't be in vain

I feel so sorry
To think like this
I should be whole-heartedly happy
Not remotely close to pissed

Conflicting myself
Constantly now
Pushing myself towards
A final bow

So sorry again
To not have the ability
To tell you the truth inside
Secretly killing me

Still try so hard
For us to see the bright side
After all, you're the one
I know I can confide

This battle keeps going
Against myself
I've not a clue what to do,
Can anyone help?

I'll always write
No doubt on that
But there must be something else
Other than tears upon my cat

I've no idea
I'll continue to write
Even if it means
Admitting me, myself, and I are having a fight