Smiling hides a lot
If you put on a convincing face
Most people won't be able to tell its fake
That inside you're crying
That your heart is slowly dying
Even my friends don't notice the pain
But it's because I don't want them to see
I don't want them to know the real me
They wouldn't look at me the same
A new meaning would be attached to my name
I don't want that
I don't want to go back
To when all anyone saw in me
Was the misery he caused me
So I bottle it up, keep it hidden
And only let my true colors show
When no ones there to see
When no one can tease
The world is cruel to people who can't defend themselves
To the ones who have given up fighting
Because it's never done them any good
The ones who haven't felt this way
Laugh and point at the ones who say
"Someone please help, I don't know what to do,"
"Tough luck kid, get over it"
They say it's easy to
But it's not, and anyone else going through this would know
Just how hard it is to keep up the show
But it's what I have to do
So I'll continue
To smile away the heartache
To act as if everything's ok
And maybe one day
The part won't be so hard to play
Someday it won't be an act at all
I'll never have to be scared to fall
When will that day come?
Soon I always hope,
But until then
I keep smiling :)
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