Words From A Friend

I get it, you want to see me happy
I know you think it'll solve everything
But for you it's easy
You're smart, outgoing, and amazingly pretty
I'm not like you
I'm not open and smiley
I don't know why
I've just never been that type

I take that back.
I was once that girl with the bright smile
But that girl's long gone,
Never to be seen again
Its not that I don't want her back
She's just slipped through the cracks
I don't know how to be like that
Now its just a memory in the distant past

I love that you care
I love how you say you'll be there
I haven't known you that long, but were already so close
You've helped me alot these past few months
You've made me see past his lies
You helped me be able to look myself in the eyes
And say to myself I'll be ok
Because of you, I have the will to stay

Now you tell me you think opening up will help me
You say it's not healthy for me to be so guarded
I understand where you're coming from
And I wish I had the strength to let down my guards
But I don't
That innocent little girl is gone
She left when he took everything
When he left her her heart in pieces.
You know about those things
That's partly why you believe this will help me
Maybe you're right
Maybe it's time for me to step into the light
I want to be that girl again, can you help me do that?