Adellyn

You came to being
During the wrong time
Mommy was in love
She didn't realize what she had done

Mommy didn't know you
Were even here
Until it was far too late
She made mistakes

Mommy drank
She smoked
Mommy was reckless
Mommy didn't know

We called you Adellyn
We never saw your face
Oh why I did I ever think
Everything was okay?

Should've known you were there
Mommy wasn't thinking straight
Daddy left before you did
Mommy was distraught

Took too many pills
Couldn't live without him
She didn't know you were there
Until she tested

Her fears came true
Four months I carried you
Gosh you were lovely
And I never saw your face

I felt you once
Mommy can't seem to face
The reality
Of her mistakes

Maybe sometime I'll see you again
But for now, you're in heaven
Even if it doesn't exist
Baby Adellyn