People tell me to forget what happened in the past and look forwarded
Yer that's all good but what if I cant
What if I can't look forwarded
Because of you
People might think that my story is bullshit and it's studied but because you have hurt me mental I can't
Do you know how hard it is to trust anyone now
Do you know how hard it is for me to sleep at night then I have nightmare about you
Do you know how hard it is to smile when all I want to do is cry
Do you know how hard it is to live and see you happy when I feel like dyeing
Do you know how hard it is seeing you with her? Do you know how it feels ? DO YOU KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO BE ALONE ? DO YOU KNOW HOW IT FEEL WHEN YOU CAN'T EVEN TRUST OUR OWN FAMILY ? NO ! You have no clue on how I feel or what I have to go though everyday
I fake the smiles
I fake the happiness
I fake the trust
I fake life
Everything that's happened as not made you into a better person
It's turned you into a monster
A monster which can't help but blame people for it wrong doings.
I would like to ask you two questions
1. What is the real reason for dumping me
2. Why do you hate me so much
Two questions you will never answer why ? Cos you can't or you wont
And why's that
That night I wondered what the fuck was wrong with me but it's not me it's you
I wish you could see my life now but you can't because your eye sight is covered up with hate
You will NEVER understand what you have done
Because if you did you would be begging for forgiveness but because you have changed me into this heartless person Why should I forgive you
Give one good reason why

I think of ways to make your sad little life hell and same days I wish a lot that something would happen to you so then I can laugh in your face and then I can see you in pain like you saw me in pain I want to know how it feel to have that power
I have a lot of questions I would love to ask but because you hate me so much you won't even look at me sad really and your the one who said I needed to change your the one who said that I needed to love or be nice to the people who hated me. Sad every sad.
One last thing to say to you or one last question

Did you really even love me in the first place and if you didn't then why did you go out with me ?