100! (back to before)

evilfingerz • 123 followers

I kept wondering what I should do for my 100th post and as I kept getting closer I finally decided to show you guys on of the first things I wrote. It's from a dark time I was going through and since then I've been writing and it's helped a lot. It's helped to write and for you guys to read my pieces and for all the lovely comments. Thanks you guys. So here it is, one if the first pieces I ever wrote. Enjoy

[I woke up one day and realize that the day I was waiting for, when this would all get better, wasn't coming

Everybody wants me to be who I'm not. They don't know what I want, they don't know my dreams, they couldn't even imagine

I don't wanna be who you want me to be, I just want to be the real me

I ain't gonna be that person you look up to. I've made all the wrong choices and have nothing left to lose. I wish I could just end it all. Just run]

And there it is, one of my first pieces I know I've gotten better but this one means a lot to me cause its where it all started. Thank you all for getting me to 100. See you at 200

#external #mental-health #personal-struggle #self-discovery

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Comments & Feedback (4)

Feb 9, 2013 at 9:45 PM

Congratulations on your 200th 👏👏👏😘

Feb 9, 2013 at 9:48 PM

@sjw actually 100th😊 and thanks😘 it's people like u that made it possible

Feb 9, 2013 at 10:08 PM

I typed 100th stupid auto correct lol 😘

Feb 10, 2013 at 11:51 PM

@sjw 😂yeah that's the easiest thing to blame

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