Try

They come and I try to push them away, but they push me back, that much closer. I can feel pain too. I try to hold back but the pain, it’s unbearable, like you’re all alone, no one would understand. It’s just so hard. Why won’t they help? Why!!! I’m screaming in my head. It would be so easy to make it go away. So many ways. No! I push but so do they more and more each day. Its getting harder to hold on, I hear voices in my head. What? I cant hear myself any more. So loud. Darker. It’s to late to turn back. But I’m stronger I can fight this. Cant let them win. I’m trying