day to day

I fucking live off coffee and cigarettes, to be honest i just don't give a shit , thats deff another lie, affirmed by my predisposition to cry. I claim to be emotionless when really I'm overrun by it. You all see a smile, but not whats inside, its just a mask i use to hide. I'm giving you what you want, now its up to you to conceive, in reality it has nothing to do with me. Over the years I've grown to see , that you don't want to know the real me. So i give you all a great facade, even though thats not my job. I shouldn't have to protect you, thats just what i tell myself, so ill protect me. Your reactions haven't necessarily been exemplary, but to my facade they've been praiseworthy. So now we land in the present, excluding the verb definition of it, because from what i see, this is not a gift, merely more weight for me to lift. And i know I'm not the only one, and I'm certainly no victim son, i actually don't have the patients for them, there luxury problems, there new scratched benz. You can leave your empty bags my friend, don't worry your bell boy will carry them. And when did i ask you for you're point of view? you people out here run your mouths, as if you have nothing to lose. You see were I'm from thats just the intro, now you've made a mistake, you better clench those fists reach for that pistol, or you best skate, do whatever you choose to do, the time has come to escalate. Theres another level to this game that you play, the parental controls are what kept you safe. It can be scary there its not a safe place, i can give you examples, there overt, in your face, undeniable evil !!how many women do you know that have been raped? one, two , three ? I was still talking about the first woman and what she had to face, did nothing wrong just in the wrong place. These animals removed her innocence from its space. She cried out loud for you god while the next man took his place. Where the fuck were you while her soal was displaced ? Graphic images of what i could do to them so there payment is made. They even rape men, what never heard of jail gay, no one is safe! The numbers were higher than the ones i just placed. my intro to hatred came at a rapid pace, that anger makes you capable of things you cant erase. The darkness gets thicker the faster you pace ! So blind that conscience it will only get in your way. Have you ever seen someones head post opinion escape? Shouldn't open your mouth when you don't know who your talking about, that smile you see can change easily. We live in a zoo and someone unlocked the cages, thats why I'm gonna stop writing soon, theres just not enough pages. The examples i can give from the war that hate wages, i kept the track marks as proof, sadly there endless and nothing can change it. The violence is normal its just day to day shit, eventually you get used to it, and now I'm just jaded. so ill end with a quote by frank warren that i was amazed with "it's the children almost broken bye this world, that become the adults most likely to change it" !!! I agree with this man, every word of his statement !!! as long as you have hope you can push threw this pain kid !