Personal Bars .

Expect the worst, right? Today apparently turned out horrible but that's no surprise. Everything I had memorized stuck out from the organized. I just hope you're looking down at me with those unforgettable hazel eyes, looking like as if they were manufactured to hypnotize..the weak. I seem Like a freak, i mean mentioning that I cannot greet the strangers that talk to much, indeed.
I needed you here, I want you to come back but who am i kidding? I'm not god, i can't turn back the hands of time. I understand that your pain is way more than done but you didn't have to take the bullet that came out from the gun. I thought you were mentally stronger than to just call it a quits, although it was brave of you to actually take that hit. Let's be real. I recognize now that you were a hypocrite to some sort of degree, lecturing me to not weep, drink some tea and go back to sleep when in fact all I wanted to do was drown in that filthy tub.
Laying in bed remembering when we were just some lousy youngsters playing with the elderly kids. Making promises that we would eventually Grow big and come back to the place years from now, where destiny brought us within.
That's not possible now, you left a young mature girl here on this planet, with the feeling of guilt & being alone. But your actions made me a stronger person, I'm here to become a pro at whatever life has throws, for you, family & myself .