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Chemical Cosh

I confess, Again, I have reverted to attempting a 'Chemical Cosh' to numb the inner
demons of emptiness.
I do it with some intelligence, although there will of course be those who would question any label of 'requiring a chemical' to 'handle the mundane part of life'.
It's symptomatic of my life, where it's easier to try to deal with not expressing myself, by not expressing myself.

You see, I am hoping that, by some 'miracle' (I've done religion, thank you), that I'll be a 'nicer person' to myself, and thus, people will suddenly find out, that I am really nice person, and want to spend time with me, cos I am nice.....etc etc.

Well, it's nice to have a goal, I suppose!

johnw455

@johnw455

I am. Searching for the Spark that has been dimmed in my deep self, and this is a journey of that discovery.

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Comments & Feedback (5)

But you are expressing yourself!

We all revert to chemicals now and then :)

@crowncottage Hi, thank you for your comments!

@crowncottage I am still figuring out how this all works, so I'll say thanks here, for the others? Dunno!!??

@johnw455 you are welcome😊

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