Is depression an illness? I mean they say it is and i have it but..
Well its not terminal cant kill me.. Well unless i top myself.
Im medicated yes and it helps i guess.
But i wonder is calling it an excuse an easy way of hiding behind the given label like.." its not their fault..its an illness"
Am i saying then, that I'm to blame for this ' illness'
Am i just to self centred self involved to crawl out of my depressed state.
Am i being pampered by the label coddled if you will by doctors and in saying its not my fault! Im ill!
Am i owning it? Or hiding from what may be my truth?!
Im lazy.
I need more than pills and a label to fix me that much I'm sure.
I hate the dependance on drugs.
But without them.. I could die.
How did you like this story?
Your feedback helps leeanne understand what's working
@leeanne
Single Mum of two boys loves photography horses dogs walks cinema reading..wine
Similar Stories
Pills
I have an ugly red one, it works like Prozac; y'know the type they say makes you high as clouds, and also it has a side effect; you shop like a maniac. I can say I do feel high when I'm out to shop.
177 words
So, What About You!?
My name is Becky. I'm twenty three years old and I have been with my boyfriend for five years (six in October).
295 words
medicated
tiny little capsules containing happiness containing sanity containing serenity containing health containing fortune just add water down your throat you can tell in your brain these pills...
97 words
Wake Up
Sometimes I need to feel pain. It lets me know. Life is not a game. It gives me the shock. That this is life. Nobody would like it. If it was ended with a knife. Sometimes a bruise.
60 words
24th April 2012
Sometimes I feel like it would be better to not exist, or that the world would be better without me, but it's a fleeting thought.
60 words
I'm lost...walking up the wrong way on an escalator...an idiot making the same mistakes over and over. I have the keys to heaven but I stripped them on purpose and now I am trapped inside my anger.
178 words
It's disheartening to know that what I want the most,...I just can't have. Perhaps even more sorrowing is that not a single person in the known universe can possibly assist me in getting what I want.
181 words
Insomnia
Ok well I know I am still awake 2:41am here in the UK and well I lay awake in bed with many thoughts going through my head tunes in my ears.....thoughts of past events running through my mind, then I...
186 words
Want to join the conversation? Sign in to leave a comment.