Corruption

Playing eternally in my mind
like an old film tape wound
Around my thoughts, my heart
Starts. It beats beneath; the clips
Whip back and forth inside my head, playing with my fragile brain
Again, laughing as it stalls
Falls. Calls. I stumble on
the same lewd thoughts
That cause the hurt, and the tears;
Years it managed to rampage on Tearing up my conscience then,
When once it was a sacred place
Undamaged, ivory, purely whole.
Soul, safe. Body, safe. Mind, safe.
It was a time of bliss back there,
Where the air was sweet, the light was bright, the water clear.
Dear life, youth, where have you gone? And why did you go away?
Stay, please, the world is cruel,
And has filled my heart with stone.
Alone, I truly am in here. Death looms around so cold and dark,
Stark and wicked, just mocking me so...
I weep and weep for hands to hold
Mold my black heart back to shape!
It has been broken for a such while...
Vile it's become, wicked and stale,
Unloving, unforgiving, wrong not right. And until today I ponder,
Wonder on. If hope exists for I am lost in mist, so blindingly thick...
Can time rewind to such a state;
unaware of life and its tragic fate?

(this is all imagined, I'm not at all this depressed :P)