P lagued by voices in my head
A asking if that's what was said
R ound and round my head it goes
A lways checking before I go
N ot in order need to fix that
O r tap three times rat a tat tat
I n the bathroom washing again
A m I really going insane?
*apologies to anyone who 'genuinely' suffers from this if it offended.
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Playing eternally in my mind like an old film tape wound Around my thoughts, my heart Starts.
(Not sure about title). I fear that fear and fear alone. Might be the ship that takes me home. Might be the demon that I can't fight. I fear that fear may dull the light.
And I think around. In circles. Ever growing. Winding. My thoughts become. Knotted like. A ball of wool. Thrown in a corner. Where the needles clatter. Left to gather dust. Around.
-Best read at a fast pace- These bats fly around Like my problems they can't hit ground For every time they try to land They begin to get sucked by the quick sand Which is the thoughts that begin to...
Crushing all your aspirations, Choking all your inhalations, Clutching all your exhalations, Dismissing any celebrations.
What should I do. Please tell me I have no clue!. I am lost in my thoughts. Please help me find my way!. Help me cause it is driving me nuts. And I have something more to say.
I want my demons to go, Wished they'd leave me alone. So that my every decision, I don't constantly judge myself on. So that with the little things I can just leave alone.
I've felt this torment many times before. The scream that builds to an internal roar. An urge in my muscles to burst out of my skin. Where is the end, I don't know where to begin.
@eddie12309 I've got this app on my phone called badly drawn and there's a picture that looks like that - the head - and I don't know what it was! Sorry - I'm so nosy! :)
@tattyteddy that's ok. It's just the pumpkin we carved and I made him hold it like that so it looked like his head. π
Paranoia was depicted beautifully, that's what I meant. When dealing with an artistic work, the critique doesn't start with the content but the format. As for the content, well, I am not capable of analyzing the O.C.D. infliction nor paranoia as a psychological disorder. Sorry if my "beautiful" bothered.
It must be agony to suffer from OCD. When he was quite young my husband became obsessed with washing his hands. I am too lazy to do any actions more times than necessary! πβΊ
@crowncottage I know. I've seen a few programmes on it. And my son likes organising cupboards and the fridge. It's quite sweet but I can imagine for some it gets totally out of control.
@eddie12309 the human brain is so complicated. I try to make sense of it and sometimes you can find a logical reason, but not always.
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