You Suck

I see so many things that are just not you. You act, look, sound and even talk different. You seem to think that the rif raff ur hanging with really cares about you. They're using you, they'll take you for whatever it is u have. They're not going to care in the morning, believe me. They're not going to give u their heart and truly mean it. They're not going to stand by your side and believe in you when no one else does. They're not going to put you before themselves and not ask for anything in return. I have seen you change into someone I don't even want to know. You say things that are so hurtful to me that I began to question myself. I began to ask other people if I'm so horrible than why do I hurt so bad? Wouldn't a horrible person have no empathy? No compassion? No heart? Wouldn't a person who only thinks of themselves only worry about themselves? I am not horrible and I am not a selfish person! I'm not ugly and I'm not crazy! I'm hurt! Plain and simple. I say things from my heart and I believe that with every piece of my being that loving with your whole heart is the only way to love! I'll get past this and I'll put the pieces of my life back together and hopefully learn from my past. I'm not going to be sad that it ended instead ill be glad that it happened! I'll always love you Steve. You gave me back my smile, even if for only a short time.