The New Me

madsuvvs • 19 followers

I often sit and think of the past, of who I used to be that girl used to have it all it was everything she could see.
Now my vision is blurred and things are not as clear everything I used to have has been replaced with fear.
Fear of the future fear of the past fear that my soul won't be able to last.
All I am is an empty body completely hollow inside, "trust me im fine" is what I have lied.
But fine was the farthest thing that could describe me fine was the only thing I couldn't be.
I wasn't a mess I wasn't broken, no I was something much worse something unspoken.
I finally came to terms that this is the new me I am the girl who will never be free.

#emotional-pain #general #inner-struggle #mental-health #personal-transformation #self-reflection

How did you like this story?

Your feedback helps madsuvvs understand what's working

Similar Stories

@ponyo

Memories Kill

I just wanted you to hear me say That that fake smile you wore today, Made me think back to a life; Of tired lies and empty strife.

134 words

@candyland_massacre

The Mess In Me

Cry myself to sleep, Watch my eyes colors bleed. A shot in the dark. Spark & shock, restarting my heart. Down a slippery path of arrogance. Whispers of a different muse.

468 words

@NayAriBella

Poem I Wrote August 2009

I'm a prisoner in my own mind and body It's always lock up the true feelings and image of who I am for the fear that people will never understand me Maybe every once in a blue moon do I unlock the...

105 words

@RebelCouture

Battling Myself;

Here I now sit, Wiping my tears, I'm in a battle, With my fears, Blood has been drawn, And tables have turned, I've tried to stop , But no lessons been learned, I'm playing a game, I'm having a...

73 words

@Paleflower

I Close My Eyes, This Is What I See

I close my eyes this is what I see, the words in my head I am madness and madness is me silence is loud and darkness is red, images float through my head, a light is dim then gone lost in the stars,...

468 words

@goddessham

Pointless

Today, I woke up feeling murderous. I want to hurt someone, or just laugh out loud at someone else's misery.

167 words

@puffy1980

Pain

If only the pain would go. So that I could feel normal. People passing by don't seem to notice. If only the pain would go. Returning me back to the way I was. I don't want to feel like this anymore.

86 words

@Earthbound

Happy?

I've read around and I hear you say, That today is Opuss's happiness day. I fished around, and found my smile, I don't wear it very often, it ain't my style.

158 words