Maybe Love Isn't At First Sight Pt 10

-3 days later-
I hugged Ellie goodbye and stumbled out the house, Ria said I could stay at hers until I found some where else to stay. She set me up in a smallish room which was very clean...!
"I hope it's o for you here" she said as if I was at a hotel
"I will thanks Ri, I appreciate it loads"
"no probs"
"umm can I ask you something?" I asked I needed to know
"sure fire away!"
"does Josh speak about me?"
"oh umm... Daisy Josh can't live without you, his misses you like mad, he won't talk to anyone though"
I sighed and turned to look out the window, he still loved me! But I could never be with him again, I realised that I hadn't spoken I awhile
"oh umm yeah, Im gonna go get some umm food for dinner" I said
"ok, careful out there" Ria said giving me a hug, I just needed to go and think at the moment. I drove my mini to the beach, I forgot about the porsche even though I would of loved it! I walked over to the fish and chip shop and got some chips and a burger, I strolled down to a rocky cove where Josh had taken me once. I sat there listening to the sea against the waves, I could of quite easily fallen asleep. I lay back against the rock, my life was over, nothing seemed right anymore, this was the first proper meal in ages, without Josh I was incomplete, I wanted to leave my life and start new, I believed in after life, there was only one way to start new. I walked to the sea and took off my top but kept my shorts on. I stood in the warmish water with my bra and shorts on it looked ok bikini I guess.. I walked into the water until I had to start swimming, I swam further out, I could feel all the salt water around my face, I couldn't believe that I was committing suicide, but I had to start new, yeah that's why I was doing it I think?! I heard voices shouting my name, Ria had probably come looking for me and got Ellie to help,
"GOODBYE" I shouted I saw the small figures turn there heads to my direction, they screamed something but I couldn't hear it because the water had made a blanket around myself. I couldn't breath propably, see or hear anymore. I drifted aimlessly, until I felt my last gulp of air escape my body, I closed my stinging eyes and fell to the bottom of the sea.....