Maybe Love Isn't At First Sight Pt9

-5 months later-
I hadn't spoken to Josh ever since 'the day' I didn't think of how I felt when I read the text I didn't seem to think of anything anymore. Ellie was getting worried I had no contact with the out side world it was like my soul had been taken away, i had lost too much weight that it was unhealthy, my hair lost its shine and bounce and was now dry and limp, my eyes lost there sparkle and Ellie described them as hollow, my lips where dry and i had lost every ounce of colour on my body. I stopped creating art if I ever tried to paint it would just be a blank page. I spent most of my time in my room either asleep or staring out the window thinking of him. My life was over and I don't think I could change it.
The doorbell rang but I couldn't be bothered to get it, they wouldn't go away so I went down stairs to see who it was. I opened the door and my parents stood there smiling,
"mum, dad! " I said smiling the first time in a long time
"hello dear, Ellie phoned and said you weren't right?" mum said, my smiled faded from my face
"you could say that" I said, I lead them into the kitchen and made them a cup of tea each,
"tell us all about it" said mum sipping her tea. I told them all about what had happened and how. In the end I ended up crying on Dads shoulder, he smoothed my back like Josh used to. When they left I walked back up to my room and snugged up in my bed with the covered up to my nose. I heard Ellie come in the house, she walked up the stairs to my room,
"Daisy! You have to forget about him" she said, Ellie had a strange emotion system, she could be on top on the world or world war 3 had started, at the moment she was in the middle,
"you know I can't, he was my life." I said trying not to remember
"I can't believe you! He's just a fucking guy! Not even a nice one" she said angrily
"don't-don't hurt him" I said shaking my head at her, I still sometimes thought he was in my room next to me, I would speak to him and tell him my problems, if anyone insulted him I would hurt inside.
"not this again"
"what?" I asked
"look Daisy Josh isn't coming back" she said angrily "I don't want to do this but you can't live here anymore"
"what?!"
"your depressed you need to get away from the memories of him"
I lay there, my best friend was getting rid of me, where would I go??