I'm ignoring you,
And I don't know why,
I push you away,
So I don't have to try,
I think about loving,
But turn my back,
This isn't for me -
Not something I can hack,
I don't know 'right',
What is 'wrong'!
Why keep singing,
This same stupid song,
Broken, somehow,
With unknown aim,
Running away from you,
So now I'm renamed.
[sorrreeeee Kimmi...!!!! I frustrate myself.]
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23, Vegetarian, (insanely busy) Vet student pondering about love, life and dragons.
Cruelty. It's vibrance, It's sharp, earthy scent, Fills me, With fear, And a feeling of dread. To taste, It's poison, On the tip of my tongue, I scorn, Myself for, Lowering myself to that level.
Don't you know, That I've changed?. That I want to be the old me?. Don't you know, I trust only myself?. That it's all your fault?. Don't you know, That I still care?. That I wish I didn't?.
Promises. I kept. Secrets. I kept. But now my last promise to you I can't keep. I no longer want to shed tears in my sleep. Your Promises. Broken. My Secrets. Spoken.
"I hate you for breaking, Such a beautiful heart. He gave you his all, And you tore him apart. "You broke him to pieces, And for what gain. You know that now, He will never be the same.
Why must life be so complicated. Stuck in two different worlds, loving two different people... Tell me which is the right path to go.
A broken heart, A brand new start. Not quite yet, Just let it set. Tears that fall, You want to call. No, just leave, I'll mourn this eve. You're on your own, You'll be alone.
Looking in the past, I wished to blame someone. Not remembering how to love, feelings of confusion made me numb.
I regret what I said, I didn't mean it at all. I was just mad, I don't want to brawl. I regret what I did, When I said those words. Like a slap in the face, I couldn't of said worse.
@naaviie! Stealing my identity! Aww hun, seriously I'm sorry you're having a hard time of it. I was like that for years, I never used to do or say anything about guys I liked because I was scared. If you're not ready then that's fine, just...take your time. But not too long or you might miss out! π
@leelee101 - afraid so! I'm being silly, I know, but hence irrational. Don't know what to think except @Odd I don't want Bert!! I make stalkers cry ππ³
@Irrational_Kimmi π sorry I just seemed fitting! He's the perfect guy on paper, I like him, he likes me - where's the problem?! In my head? Or isn't it 'right'? What does that even mean! ππ how did you get out of it?
You really are thinking about all the wrong things and spending too much time doing it. I'm not blowing my trumpet here, but you read my piece this afternoon, you don't need any advice. You say it yourself, he likes, you like, there's nothing else to consider. Dive in, try it on! Like Kim says, don't leave it too long... Snap to it girl! Grab that man! πππππ
@leelee101 - you are so right π³π³ I know it's stupid, dont know where it comes from. Will slap myself every time i do this ππ conditioning. Thanks Mr Smurf π
@naaviie just promise that you'll give it a go Nic. You might lose out hunny and you really will kick yourself, believe me πππππ
Well my experience with the opposite sex is basically non-existent.. βΊ But I do know that you'll never know until you try! It's hard not to be nervous, but you just gotta be brave and be yourself :) π
@natalee - very good advise, I have to be brave - you knows right? What have I got to lose? ππ
@natalee - thank you sweetie, I'm sure whatever happens I'll deal with it in poem form π bedtime for me now though π€π€π€
@naaviie π good advice from @natalee and @leelee101 ! Just give it a go, you never know how it will work out. And with me...well, we were best friends first so that made it a little easier β€
@Irrational_Kimmi @leelee101 @misslittleDHP - I will but I can't do anything till I get back to uni! ππ
Oooo nic! Just go for it and stop that negative thinking or I'll have to come and slap you π³ππ
@sjw - ooo back to being all nice now, eh? ππ yeh sunflowers are gorgeous, this was a sunflower farm outside Bangkok π
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