I have nothing to fear,
So why is unclear,
The dread I feel,
Is very surreal,
My pulse races,
My mind in dark places,
My breath non productive,
Breathlessness destructive,
Sheer panic bubbles above the surface out of the blue,
Hits me like a tonne of bricks this feeling isn't new,
A panic attack but why now,
Beads of sweat glisten above my brow,
I've nothing to panic for but they still appear,
Sitting on the edge looking over into the face of the panic attack fear.
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Surging through my veins, Fuzzing in my ears, I can't hear, Doom raising up, My heartbeats quick, My lashes flick, I can't breathe, Colour drains, I'm in pain, Struggling for breath, My fingers...
Some say silence is golden, But to me, silence is killer. I'm not sure why, But I can't stand silence. I can't sit it either. Silence and I are mortal enemies.
Trust requires a balance of the mind, A certain rationale That has always escaped me Too paranoid, Too insecure.
Twisting and turning. The world doesn't make sense. The fear twines around me. Suffocates the very essence of my being. Starved. On the verge of tears. On the edge of surrender.
#FreeVerse Worry Always on the edge of my mind Like a knife That Just. Won't. Leave. Like an edge that I can't drink away Can't drown Can't burn Can't cut Can't cure.
Worry,. In the pits of your,. Tummy,. Squeezing it. Tight,. Manifesting in terror or. Fright,. Sickened stomach,. The mind becomes a. Race,. Speeding up,. never loosing. Pace,. A feeling,.
Okay. I can do this Smile. Sigh. I walk through the crowd, surprised that no one has realised my false pretence that I try so dramatically to pull off. Or maybe they have given up on me.
And I think around. In circles. Ever growing. Winding. My thoughts become. Knotted like. A ball of wool. Thrown in a corner. Where the needles clatter. Left to gather dust. Around.
@leelee101 @sarahgamal @minxyMolly thanks guys, I'm ok for now, this is the 2nd panic attack in a week, very scary and not quite sure why they're happening! I actually don't remember writing this 😳 thank you all for your kind words and concern, I'm waiting for a call from the doctors, gotta get these sorted once and for all! Thanks all! 😘❤
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