Doubts

sarahgamal • 351 followers

I try to smile
And hide the fears inside
I have been trying to heal my heart
But it looks like it will take a while

I lie and say that I already let go
But images of the past keeping pushing through my door
Words that were thrown don't want to leave me alone

I do love you with all my heart
But the battles inside me are whispering just run and don't start

I don't know if trying again was in your head
You just came and said " I love another instead"
I let go of my mind and pride
And my heart just took your side

Since then I have been living in fear
Not knowing how long will you stay near
It was easy for you before to just pack and go
But if you do it again this time I will let you go

The pain of living without you by my side
Is better than loving you with doubt always on my mind

#emotional-struggle #general #heartbreak #relationship-trauma #self-reflection

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