Just My Luck

So about deleting my online dating account...

I know I said I didn't want to continue using it but I made a friend who has greatly helped to reinforce my priorities.

No, I am not going to fall for him the same way I did for whatshisface, although whatshisface and I also started off just as friends. But this guy I met is older (he's 20) so it's even more frowned upon for anything to happen between us.

And nothing is going to happen. I'm not particularly attracted to him. He's nice though.

But anyway, I really don't plan on being on the site much longer. Once I get a job and things start changing in my life, I'll delete the account. Until then, I just like having someone to talk to.

It's crazy though because apparently you can have "favorite" matches on the website. If you love a match, then you favorite them. I was unaware of this feature but I accidentally clicked on my favorites tab and guess who was my one and only favorite?

Whatshisface!

I looked up on the website how the hell you make favorites because I did not remember/know that I made a match a favorite, nonetheless being whatshisface.

Well I went on my new friend's account to see where the "star" icon was for favoriting matches and basically...when I sent whatshisface the inside joke at 5am when I was half asleep, my finger must've hit the "favorite" button by accident.

And because he's my "favorite match," I can tell whenever he's online now.

I don't know how this happens to me.

Also, as I answer more questions on the site, we become a higher match for each other.

Currently we're at 92% compatible. And 1% enemy.

I don't know if he's my enemy per se but we're not friends. But we have a 57% chance of being a friends!

I'm only blogging about this because of the irony.

It's pretty funny actually.

But anyway, I still care about him. I think about him occasionally. The past few days were honestly more difficult for me than they should have been...we never dated or anything. But I wanted friends when I joined OkCupid. Friends are more permanent than dating, and I need permanence. Falling out with him as my friend and also being rejected by him 3-4 times as a romantic companion hurt me a lot because I'm not in the best state of mind right now. Again, I need permanence. He sounded like he was permanent so I let myself fall for him.

But today has been good. My thoughts for him weren't me hating him or regretting anything, I was just happy that I had this experience. And I'm looking forward to the changes that I'm planning in my life. I'm pretty optimistic about them.

Hopefully my positive attitude will continue to prevail!

Hopefully I'll get the hell out of square one.