Happy Fake Fathers Day Dad......

Inspired by @Fly10
(your post behind closed doors but also your ability and courage to talk about it in other posts)

I guess its okay
To talk about it,
And seeing its fathers day
I may as well expose this s*it,

When I say I'm bad
I must be I think,
Because my dear old dad
Left me to alone to sink,

Not only that when I was a babe
He came with a shot barrel gun,
Tried to put me in an early grave
I was his child thought I'd be his number one,

Not only that he beat my mum
As well as me too,
Made us feel worthless and dumb
At least my siblings never had to live through,

They were lucky only my father
They had another man as their dad,
I know which I'd rather
Instead of feeling I'm so bad,

Finally ran got away free
But there's no were to hide,
You're the nightmares I see
The monster deep inside,

Didn't see you again until I was nine
When life had already f****ed me up,
To the state I was left crying
No one to help me clean up,

But yet again you disappeared
Couldn't handle me I guess,
I know never will you reappear
I think I must have caused too much stress,

No mum and now no dad
I'm left all alone in this world,
And people wonder why I'm sad
Just me myself a girl,

It's a good thing I have mini man
For him I have to be strong,
I'll never be like my dad I know that I can
Never fail I can't ever be wrong,

So do what you like dad
We don't need you,
Yeah there's days when I'm sad
But my heart is always to be true,

No happy fathers day for that fake
No need, one I act as woman and man,
All you did was never give but take
And now I finally understand,

That it wasn't me it was you
You don't deserve my heart,
My love or anything I can do
Because your the one who failed from the start,

Nearly let it happen with my last
The one who said he loved me,
Now just memories from my past
I can now let myself be free,

I'm glad I didn't let it go on
Let him beat me down bad,
I won't be like my mum,
Even if your mini mans dad,

I still have my days
Where I don't know what I live for,
I hear and listen to what my mini man says
And realise there's so much more,

I will pick up and find myself
Even after all you did and said,
I won't be left dusty on a shelf
No longer will you get inside my head,

Bye dad
Have a great day,
I'm really glad
Happy fake fathers day.......

(For both fake fathers)

(Sorry for late post girlie weekend can't sleep yet and I know it's not technically fathers day but this is the time I had to write.....)