A Difficult Decision

You know there's something wrong when you can't live in your own home,
You can't think straight & have blurred vision,
You thought you had the benefit of doubt,
But now you're left making a difficult decision,
The trust you thought was there is long gone,
Anger consumes the air,
Respect has been lost,
And yet no one seems to care,
You hear stories about broken homes,
And think I'm blessed that won't be me,
Then before you know it things come crashing down,
And you no longer feel a sense of security,
So you make up your mind,
it's better for your health,
After all money can't buy happiness,
Nope...no amount of wealth,
You only have two choices,
Stay or go,
You know this isn't right,
Life isn't flowing the way it's suppose to flow,
I'm not saying everything's supposed to be easy,
Life is meant to be hard,
But you shouldn't have to live in your own house,
And be constantly scarred,
Scarred with repressed memories,
Memories of the past,
Memories that shouldn't hurt,
But make the good times last,
But when bad outweighs good,
What are you suppose to do,
Stay here and suffer,
After all the crap you've been through,
No not me,
I'm far done with that,
I may be your little girl,
But facts will always be facts,
I'm living with a person,
Who steals, lies, & hits,
I was in a dark place before,
Done and ready to quit,
Ready to end it all,
With one cut, jump, or shot,
I was ready to die,
But God said no... You're not,
And so I stayed strong,
For the benefit of myself,
To prove that bastard wrong,
To gain a better sense if health,
But now after all that's gone down,
I lie here confused,
Yea on the outside I'm okay,
But inside I'm mentally bruised,
The hurtful words exchanged,
Stay in the back of my mind,
So my ultimate decision?
Move on and leave it behind,
I'm a strong young woman,
You raised me to be,
But you're too blind to see,
This environment is hurting me,
I'm not being selfish,
Sometimes you have to move on,
The only thing I've been wondering,
is why the heck it took so long,
So long for me to realize,
That this wasn't right for me,
I guess all the toxicity,
Made it too hard for me to see,
But I'm done now,
God has thankfully restored my vision,
And although all seems clear,
I'm still left.. With a difficult decision...