Singeing Reminder

Warning-self injury and suicide references

Memories long forgotten
Locked away in my mind
Barred behind walls
A place where I can unwind

Then you came along
Knocking down my walls
There's no hiding now
So I sprint down the halls

You reveal hidden scars
And see all my pain
Where I used to be alone
Where only I could see it rain

So I keep running
I dive into my room
I crawl into bed
Which soon shall be my tomb

I'm shaking too much
And I can see my blade
This is what I want
I am not afraid

One slash, two slash
Three slash, four
What's another cut?
Why not more?

The blood pours out
Fire burns in my skin
I don't want to feel it
So I down a bottle of gin

Five slash, six slash
Seven slash, eight
I've already begun
So why wait?

I open the bottle
Hold the pills in my hand
I've been ready for this
I've had it all planned

You burst in the door
See the cuts on my wrist
You see the pills in my hand
And you tell me to resist

You take my hand
And place it in yours
You tell me I can win
I can win these wars

In a sweet sense of peace
I feel your lips on mine
And I think to myself
Will everything be fine?

You kiss me everyday
Causing so much confusion
You think you make it better
But it's partly an illusion

Your lips have twist
They taste like the past
In a singeing reminder
Of when I was an outcast